OMGZZZZ SCRUBS IS HILARIOUS!
Just had to say innit.
Well, haven't been on in ages. It's like, I used to be on here too much so I've got tired of it. So whatevs motherfucker.
Guy I like or liked, I don't know, is still going out with that girl. Even though he continually flirts with me, they're apparently 'in love'. Fuck off. You're not.
I don't care if my 'best friend' isn't my best friend anymore, that's her problem or unproblem. I'm also doing a 'Formal Dinner Party' on November 10th with my friend, t'will be hilarious. On November 15th I'm going to see My Chemical Romance at The 02, my seats are RIGHT at the back so basically I'll just be watching television.
Sigh.
Blahblahblah.
Saturday, 13 October 2007
Sunday, 7 October 2007
you are not alone, i am here with you
Woah, haven't been on in ages.
Good and bad things have happened since I was last on.
Well, let's see, this probably seems trivial. It is. But I'm a girl that takes things personally and to heart, I'm sensitive, a dreamer and over emotional. Ehh, yeah, back on subject. Y'know when you go down someones myspace top friends? Well, like I said either I'm being a bit hormonal today or it's just me but I went down on my 'best friends' who is also mad at me for some reason put me down and the 'Replacer' in my place.
I dunno. I tell myself I don't care but I do.
The guy I like, or tell myself I don't like anymore, he's annoying me really, asked the girl out and now they're going out. On MSN he's always being, "Oh, I miss her so much!" And Im like 'GO FUCKING CALL HER THEN! GO TO HER HOUSE! YOU LAME-ASS BOYFRIEND!' Jeez. Idiot.
I also have a rather fast heartbeat, it's overly shit. I swear, I barely excercise and I snack on unhealthy shit. Though, it's really fucked, cos I'm really slim. Like I have a fine figure, a nice figure, not the biggest boobs, but whatever. I can work that to my advantage in some way.
Also I have these like, stretchmarks, y'know growing marks on my inner thigh but it's visible. They're annoying and... not nice. Anyway, maybe next year me and some people in my school, depends if I get in or not a trip to Germany but there most likely will be too many people going in so it's a raffle and if they draw your name you go... if they don't you don't go. Well, on one of the days there you have to go to some swimming pool with the longest slides in the world and yeah, swimsuit in front of guys and people I hate. Oh God...
Y'know, I cannot wait till I get to go to college, university, travel the world, see new things, meet new people, become a published novelist and fall in love.
...Sigh.
Good and bad things have happened since I was last on.
Well, let's see, this probably seems trivial. It is. But I'm a girl that takes things personally and to heart, I'm sensitive, a dreamer and over emotional. Ehh, yeah, back on subject. Y'know when you go down someones myspace top friends? Well, like I said either I'm being a bit hormonal today or it's just me but I went down on my 'best friends' who is also mad at me for some reason put me down and the 'Replacer' in my place.
I dunno. I tell myself I don't care but I do.
The guy I like, or tell myself I don't like anymore, he's annoying me really, asked the girl out and now they're going out. On MSN he's always being, "Oh, I miss her so much!" And Im like 'GO FUCKING CALL HER THEN! GO TO HER HOUSE! YOU LAME-ASS BOYFRIEND!' Jeez. Idiot.
I also have a rather fast heartbeat, it's overly shit. I swear, I barely excercise and I snack on unhealthy shit. Though, it's really fucked, cos I'm really slim. Like I have a fine figure, a nice figure, not the biggest boobs, but whatever. I can work that to my advantage in some way.
Also I have these like, stretchmarks, y'know growing marks on my inner thigh but it's visible. They're annoying and... not nice. Anyway, maybe next year me and some people in my school, depends if I get in or not a trip to Germany but there most likely will be too many people going in so it's a raffle and if they draw your name you go... if they don't you don't go. Well, on one of the days there you have to go to some swimming pool with the longest slides in the world and yeah, swimsuit in front of guys and people I hate. Oh God...
Y'know, I cannot wait till I get to go to college, university, travel the world, see new things, meet new people, become a published novelist and fall in love.
...Sigh.
Tuesday, 2 October 2007
holding too tightly, afraid to lose control...
It's pathetic how I can only really find comfort in things like crappy American telly shows, the computer and books. Seriously, I may be young but I really fucking hate my life at the moment.
Yeah, another 'emo' rant. Get the hell over it.
My 'best friend' (yes, the little quotes again) broke up with her boyfriend of like 3 days. Wow, that lasted pretty long. Correction, he broke up with her. Then with me trying to comfort my friend, the girl that snuck her way in and stole my friend (I sound really pathetic right now) was like, "Oh my gosh! This is all my fault, I can't believe I let her ask him out, I'm so sorry! Move out the way!" Yes, it's all your fault, I mean she's like this guy for about a year and you've actually known her for about a month, who was the one she phoned when she was in trouble? Hmm? And the one she moaned endlessly on the phone to about this boy?
Yeah, fuck off.
Then at lunch I ask my friend to come around my house after school and then she's like, "Oh no, me and (girl who 'stole' her) are going to some café together to talk about my love life."
Me: *laugh* "Well can I come?"
Her: "Erm no. It's just for us two, we're spending time together now, cos we lurve each other! So no" *walks away*
Well thanks then.
Then that guy I like, yeah the one I wrote about the other day? Well, I really like him. My feelings for him have been developing and yeah, we really get on. Earlier today whilst I was sitting next to one of my other friends in PE she was like, "OMG! I really like [the boy I like]. I well fancy him! He keeps hugging me and putting his arms around my waist, it's so cute! Ahh!"
So obviously he does it to everyone. Seriously. I know that, but he does it to EVERYONE!
Then at lunch registration while we were standing behind our seats, I sit next to my 'best friends' ex and he was like, "Sorry for snapping at you earlier..." Cos he did and I was like,
"No, it's okay. It's how you feel and you can't force feelings upon yourself" I wish you could though. But then, the guy I like who sits 2 desks behind me was like to the guy, "I'm gonna do it tomorrow!"
Then he was like, "Okay cool!" I asked what he was going to do and for a split second then I thought he meant ask me out on a date or something. But yeah my imagination.
Then I asked the guy sitting next to me what he was going to do and he said, "He's gonna ask this girl out!" And I was like, "Really...?! That's amazing!" Then when we had to fucking go to English the bastard comes up to me and starts hugging me and flirting again and I'm thinking, 'STOP PLAYING ME AND OTHER GIRLS ON! IT'S GETTING STUPID!' But obviously I don't say that, I'm just like, "So you're gonna ask her out yeah?" And he's nodding and has his arm around my waist and is like what do you think I should say? What do girls like getting as presents? What should I compliment her on? Then when that's finished and he's like "You okay?"
Obviously I'm not and I'm like, "Ehh.. my life sucks."
He's like, "So does mine. Nothing good ever happens." Oh nothing, just that your gonna ask a girl out and you know she's gonna say yes and mean it because she openly says she likes you. Then when we're lining up for english he just hugs me, tells me my hairs nice (because the other day I asked him if my hair was frizzy) and talks about the weather to me... yeah...
I swear just a bijillion more days till high schools over.
Oh and ANYONE, if you hate me I don't care, just comment. My blogs feel lonely.
Yeah, another 'emo' rant. Get the hell over it.
My 'best friend' (yes, the little quotes again) broke up with her boyfriend of like 3 days. Wow, that lasted pretty long. Correction, he broke up with her. Then with me trying to comfort my friend, the girl that snuck her way in and stole my friend (I sound really pathetic right now) was like, "Oh my gosh! This is all my fault, I can't believe I let her ask him out, I'm so sorry! Move out the way!" Yes, it's all your fault, I mean she's like this guy for about a year and you've actually known her for about a month, who was the one she phoned when she was in trouble? Hmm? And the one she moaned endlessly on the phone to about this boy?
Yeah, fuck off.
Then at lunch I ask my friend to come around my house after school and then she's like, "Oh no, me and (girl who 'stole' her) are going to some café together to talk about my love life."
Me: *laugh* "Well can I come?"
Her: "Erm no. It's just for us two, we're spending time together now, cos we lurve each other! So no" *walks away*
Well thanks then.
Then that guy I like, yeah the one I wrote about the other day? Well, I really like him. My feelings for him have been developing and yeah, we really get on. Earlier today whilst I was sitting next to one of my other friends in PE she was like, "OMG! I really like [the boy I like]. I well fancy him! He keeps hugging me and putting his arms around my waist, it's so cute! Ahh!"
So obviously he does it to everyone. Seriously. I know that, but he does it to EVERYONE!
Then at lunch registration while we were standing behind our seats, I sit next to my 'best friends' ex and he was like, "Sorry for snapping at you earlier..." Cos he did and I was like,
"No, it's okay. It's how you feel and you can't force feelings upon yourself" I wish you could though. But then, the guy I like who sits 2 desks behind me was like to the guy, "I'm gonna do it tomorrow!"
Then he was like, "Okay cool!" I asked what he was going to do and for a split second then I thought he meant ask me out on a date or something. But yeah my imagination.
Then I asked the guy sitting next to me what he was going to do and he said, "He's gonna ask this girl out!" And I was like, "Really...?! That's amazing!" Then when we had to fucking go to English the bastard comes up to me and starts hugging me and flirting again and I'm thinking, 'STOP PLAYING ME AND OTHER GIRLS ON! IT'S GETTING STUPID!' But obviously I don't say that, I'm just like, "So you're gonna ask her out yeah?" And he's nodding and has his arm around my waist and is like what do you think I should say? What do girls like getting as presents? What should I compliment her on? Then when that's finished and he's like "You okay?"
Obviously I'm not and I'm like, "Ehh.. my life sucks."
He's like, "So does mine. Nothing good ever happens." Oh nothing, just that your gonna ask a girl out and you know she's gonna say yes and mean it because she openly says she likes you. Then when we're lining up for english he just hugs me, tells me my hairs nice (because the other day I asked him if my hair was frizzy) and talks about the weather to me... yeah...
I swear just a bijillion more days till high schools over.
Oh and ANYONE, if you hate me I don't care, just comment. My blogs feel lonely.
Monday, 1 October 2007
we have to take our clothes off, to have a good time!
Yesterday, when I went to Chesington Park was actually okay. Yeah, there was this one hot guy in some Iron Maiden shirt who I swooned over. Went on a few roller coasters, had a spazz, etc.
Oh yeah and I also found out how to get to world 4 on Super Mario!! Yes, my life is now complete!
Hmm, today was alright. I once again flirted with some guys and I think I like two guys now, the one from science who I constantly flirt with and apparently with me touching his muscles and flirting with him we both made it look as if we were on a date... in the science labs but whatever, fine by me!
Conversed with two guys and one girl at lunch, had a spazz. Then when we were walking out of the lunch room to go to our form at the end of lunch my friend started talking about giving head and was like, "Oh whats this white sperm doing in my mouth?" And two teachers heard us and were like o_O and we just went away laughing. I had another spazz in my form and just went and sat with the other guy I like and started flirting and hugging and it was jokes.
I'm sorry, do I sound like some slut flirting with these guys? Cos it sounds as if I am cos I've said 'flirting' about 100 times in this blog. Well, I'm not. Seriously.
That's about it really. I cant be bothered to write anymore
I heart you all!
Oh, and we learn how to put a condom on a plastic penis today in sex ed.
Twas fun. Though, with all this fucking contraceptives and how much it hurts that they go on about, it makes it sound like sex is a fucking chore.
Oh yeah and I also found out how to get to world 4 on Super Mario!! Yes, my life is now complete!
Hmm, today was alright. I once again flirted with some guys and I think I like two guys now, the one from science who I constantly flirt with and apparently with me touching his muscles and flirting with him we both made it look as if we were on a date... in the science labs but whatever, fine by me!
Conversed with two guys and one girl at lunch, had a spazz. Then when we were walking out of the lunch room to go to our form at the end of lunch my friend started talking about giving head and was like, "Oh whats this white sperm doing in my mouth?" And two teachers heard us and were like o_O and we just went away laughing. I had another spazz in my form and just went and sat with the other guy I like and started flirting and hugging and it was jokes.
I'm sorry, do I sound like some slut flirting with these guys? Cos it sounds as if I am cos I've said 'flirting' about 100 times in this blog. Well, I'm not. Seriously.
That's about it really. I cant be bothered to write anymore
I heart you all!
Oh, and we learn how to put a condom on a plastic penis today in sex ed.
Twas fun. Though, with all this fucking contraceptives and how much it hurts that they go on about, it makes it sound like sex is a fucking chore.
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